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Post by Garrett on Sat Nov 29, 2014 11:57 pm

Well, that's not true. I'm a husband, and a soon to be father. I just finished the first draft of a sci-fi short story that I might want to serialize.

But, finding work is damn hard. I just qualified for food stamps, medi-cal and unemployment, and I feel a little uncomfortable about being fully supported by welfare. I could very well end up a janitor or dish washer soon, which is probably the only way to take a career step downward from retail loss prevention. My wife and mother-in-law say I need to be more aggressive, however I've found it's hard to motivate yourself when you feel like shit.

I miss smoking weed. It really elevated my mood. Alcohol is not the same. I've gained back about 30 pounds, which was what I lost when I was smoking regularly, so I'm in the 180s again, and I don't feel too good about that. It might not be fair to credit drugs for that, but It gave me something else to do with my hands and mouth at least.

The only way I'm gonna get out of this is if I find a way to do what I want to do for a living, which I have to believe is writing.

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Post by chris_halo on Wed Dec 03, 2014 12:31 am

you are blessed to have a wife and a child on the way!

i feel bad sometimes because i live on social security but i know i need it and i also know that i'd give money for someone who needed money like i do too

i miss smoking weed too.. i haven't for like 10 years.. i'm paranoid enough as it is

i really hope that you can write for a living!

i'm a paranoid schizophrenic with crippling agoraphobia.. i literally can't go anywhere without my dad.. just be happy that you are healthy

good things will be coming your way i'm sure.. just stick it out, everything will be fine

God bless and i'll be praying for you!
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Post by Garrett on Wed Dec 03, 2014 3:36 pm

Thanks. Your religiously-tinged optimism reminds me of my dad.
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Post by Vezmus on Fri Dec 19, 2014 12:59 pm

Start hardcore stealing from retail stores and selling it on ebay. Shit can be gotten out the door. It can always happen.
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Post by Garrett on Sat Jan 10, 2015 1:51 am

That sounds like fun and all, but I can't see myself really doing it. I'm not brazen enough.

As a teenager, I was accused/questioned about stealing demo discs at Best Buy and Safeway in separate incidents, and it was deeply upsetting.
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Post by Vezmus on Sat Jan 17, 2015 10:18 am

Any improvement?
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Post by Garrett on Tue Jan 20, 2015 10:19 pm

A local Ross store has accepted me for transfer, full time, pending the background check. I'm going from 10.60 an hour to 9.50, but I could do a lot worse, so I'm calling it an improvement.

I still haven't heard from unemployment as to whether or not I was approved, but if that comes through I'll get almost $3000 for the four months I wasn't working. If I do, I'm putting most of it toward a used car.

Either way, I can't be unemployed with a baby on the way. I've got a family to support now. I've got to stick to my original plan of finishing my novel and getting it published. It probably wont be before I'm 30, but it'll happen, and it'll feel great.
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Re: Now I'm nothing.

Post by chris_halo on Sun Feb 01, 2015 5:20 am

put me down for a first edition

WITH A PERSONALIZED SIGNATURE!
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Post by chris_halo on Sat Feb 28, 2015 3:04 am

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Post by Garrett on Tue Mar 17, 2015 9:10 pm

I'm so unfamous that my signature actually lowers the value of my work.
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Post by Soylent Brown on Thu Mar 19, 2015 12:05 am

I am relieved to know that things are looking up for you and your family and hope that they continue to improve.
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Post by Garrett on Thu Mar 26, 2015 9:50 pm

Thanks! Things actually feel pretty good right now. I'm working full time and can basically support us on my own, and I like this store more than the last. Michelle is about to take maternity leave, and in a few months I'm going to be a father. It still feels strange to say. I think I'm just going to dive head first into though, and try to be a great family man. One kid can't be that hard.
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Post by Soylent Brown on Fri Mar 27, 2015 1:47 am

awesome! I think you'll do great. I'll be in SD in August. Maybe I could meet your Michelle and your creation? Smile
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Post by Garrett on Fri Mar 27, 2015 11:42 pm

I think we could work that out.
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Post by Soylent Brown on Sun Mar 29, 2015 8:53 pm

awesome!
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Post by Vezmus on Sun Sep 20, 2015 10:10 pm

What's up with your life now? Update this shiznit
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Post by Soylent Brown on Tue Sep 22, 2015 6:43 pm

His baby is super cute and his wife is rad!
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Post by dredge on Fri Nov 13, 2015 3:08 pm

I'm gay
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Post by Soylent Brown on Sat Nov 14, 2015 2:20 am

We know...
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Post by Vezmus on Thu Dec 31, 2015 8:21 pm




This is you, Ale
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Post by chris_halo on Tue Feb 02, 2016 2:04 pm

how's life garrett?
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Post by Vezmus on Wed Feb 10, 2016 4:45 pm

chris_halo wrote:how's life garrett?


good
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Post by Garrett on Wed Feb 17, 2016 11:17 pm

Sorry, I avoid coming here sometimes. I guess I'm embarrassed by having failed to actually capture the old board in terms of enthusiasm. I think I understand now why donk abandoned the original board.

As for my life! Well, it has been interesting. Just recently I was fired after 6 years of working for Ross Dress For Less and have decided to move to Washington state in about a month. I have enough money set aside to get up there and pay bills for several months, so I'm just enjoying time with my family and polishing up my skills by doing codecademy.com and ms office tutorials and applying for jobs here and there. I'm excited to try this again, but better prepared after the failure of moving to San Diego.
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Post by chris_halo on Mon Feb 22, 2016 3:54 pm

yeah, the old board was nice.. haven't found any message board like it.. i check this pretty regularly but i don't have anything else to do.. i don't even listen to deftones anymore

that's good news! (not that you were fired but that you have a good plan ahead of you lol) good luck!

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Post by Garrett on Fri Feb 26, 2016 1:13 pm

Yeah, I think message boards had a time and place pre-social networks, and now they're very niche if they do exist.

I think Ross did me a favor by firing me. I can do better, I just needed the push to get beyond my fear of failure.
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Post by Garrett on Sat Apr 09, 2016 11:37 pm

Well, I'm in Washington now, and I got a job as a security officer on my third day up here. It's easier than working at Ross, and I'm making $35,000+ annually at this position, depending on how much overtime I get. The weather has been surprisingly beautiful too, but we'll see how bad it gets in fall and winter. It's been almost two weeks, and I already feel really at home here.
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Post by chris_halo on Sun Apr 10, 2016 1:33 pm

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Post by Vezmus on Sat May 14, 2016 3:26 am

I just had the feeling that this is the strangest little corner of the internet. Old board nostalgia, and caring about Garretts life. Three or four people weakly cling to this little raft of code. It's all that remains of one of my teenage pastimes. It's like a door of the titanic, and I am rose hanging on for life.
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